Roger HarrisWhat never would have been
October 6th 2006 13:52
Yesterday I took the day off work – I have an excess of days I need to use before the end of the year or I lose them.
I rarely get child free/work free time, so it’s really a luxury.
Around 3 I went to the car wash. I wanted to scrub that vomit out from earlier this week. The car wash is just across the street from where my son goes to school. I didn’t plan it this way, but I was there right when they get out of school. (he goes to an afterschool program)
I was reminded that one of the things the exhusband and I talked extensively about what that I would work part time when the kids because school aged. I really wanted to do that.
I rarely have thoughts like this. The what-could-have-been type thoughts. I honestly don’t remember the last time I thought like this. I’m sure it’s been over a year.
I'm far enough along now to KNOW that never would have happened - although we'd talked about it - it wouldn't have happened. I was our primary income earner, the ex … well.. wasn’t great about keeping his jobs. I would have never gone part time. So I know it’s not a real could-have-been thing. It’s more of what I wanted if I’d been married to someone else.
But I was reminded how much I wanted to do that.
I rarely get child free/work free time, so it’s really a luxury.
Around 3 I went to the car wash. I wanted to scrub that vomit out from earlier this week. The car wash is just across the street from where my son goes to school. I didn’t plan it this way, but I was there right when they get out of school. (he goes to an afterschool program)
I was reminded that one of the things the exhusband and I talked extensively about what that I would work part time when the kids because school aged. I really wanted to do that.
I rarely have thoughts like this. The what-could-have-been type thoughts. I honestly don’t remember the last time I thought like this. I’m sure it’s been over a year.
I'm far enough along now to KNOW that never would have happened - although we'd talked about it - it wouldn't have happened. I was our primary income earner, the ex … well.. wasn’t great about keeping his jobs. I would have never gone part time. So I know it’s not a real could-have-been thing. It’s more of what I wanted if I’d been married to someone else.
But I was reminded how much I wanted to do that.
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Comment by Questionable Content
I wonder what sort of parent I'll make? Keep it up
Comment by Chantal
Perhaps, some time in the future you'll meet the real Mr Right and you'll have that opportunity!
In the meantime... smile